Memory of me

2010-03-08T13:43:00.002+08:00

confuse i am make me start thinking about stuff more complicated then ever......

feeling close to God make me feel more relax but going any more nearer need me to be committed... commitment is nv my type of job, all i wish is just having freedom being set free from all boundary and burdens, God will help me remove my sin, my burdens but that does not set me free i will need to be as one with the lord and serve him and they say the greatest reward is to be with him stay with him? if that's the case were is the freedom? and is this what i want?

why am i close to God? is it just because i want to be with HIM? or is it because of friends? what will happen if all my friend left? will i still be faithful and stay committed?

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i will soon hear if i am approve to work part time in resort world sentosa, i have chosen part-time instead of casual timing cause part time will be more stable then casual timing, but part time need to work at less 22 hours per week that will remove Friday afternoon time, Saturday and Sunday timing, which mean is i am to work there i will not be able to go for servicing, worshiping and praising

GOD HELP ME!!!!!!!! i do not know if you can hear me but i hope you can help me with choice

2009-11-20T19:09:00.002+08:00

its already mid nov going dec le this term do pass fast finally project all has been completed with the help of anni, ys and all thx guys...

ya like i said its already nov going dec and i still have not change?(maybe not a right word to what i describe) hmm.. still lost and dull, i have people close to me around me but i still feel alone why? why am i feeling this way?

injured my leg again... still recovering.......

life is like a game but this game have rules not only rules came with the games but also rules set by other people that are involve in the game, you can nv play alone not because u wan to but it is a must to have people playing his games with you. this game is real, the only thing different are. we are the pieces in the game, the game will nv be fair, there are no reset but only the end and 1 more things is that normally during playing games you only play with a set but for this game you will play with more then a set maybe more then u can count but this game you can stop any time you want once stop its the end u can nv ask for a replay or a start over, game over means game over..

2009-09-25T03:18:00.003+08:00

thinking of quitting and getting something easier to learn and work part time to save for music school instead of continue on being lost and more... will be in NS in 2 years time.... there is not much time left.... it may be troublesome but life goes on no matter who, how what u are....

Yuki,Miki,Akira,Riko,Ramsey And YF thx for visiting me and the gift you bring, glade that u found your goals in life. ありがとおございます

dec outing will be a chalet planning pls do?! wanna get out of my home asap, my life like so boring need life.... so planning pls

2009-09-17T16:44:00.002+08:00

saw a good post by my friend wanted to post it up but has to get his permission 1st lol copyright comes 1st

haha getting injured follow by being spam.... childish dunno y kids nowadays don't grow up and their mature level is like kids even when they are already teens....

2009-09-14T13:54:00.000+08:00

last Thursday went swimming thinking of getting back my energy to swim more laps... after swimming had a fall on my injure leg, this time the pain was so great i hardly stand but thx to this guy from sport management who help me along till i manage to hired a cap, while during the ride to TTSH i call my mum to tell her the situation and which hospital i am heading, upon reaching the nurse help me to the wheel chair take me temperature and continue on with the registration. i wait for awhile before i could setter my self down, i took my x-ray, have the doctor check on my injury leg and WOW pain like FUCK, the doctor told me the situation i am in what happen to my leg around how long will it take to recover and blah blah blah blah continue with two jab on my both hand and a bandage to support my leg and also get my self a "birthday present" a pair of crutches =.="' still prefer the wheel chair though, plus a 2 days mc to rest myself.

after taking painkiller, the painkiller dun kill the pain but make me wanna sleep!~

today my mum want me to stay at home! take a half day leave and bring me to polyclinic to see hows my leg recovering and request for a MC for today but the docter say i am not fit to go to school since my school is located too far away from home and she give me a 5 days MC till 18 Sept and i am not allow to do any swimming within this two month OMFG!!!!!

2009-09-04T05:38:00.000+08:00

FUCKING IRRITATED BY A BUNCH OF MORONS, THEY CAN NV GROW UP STILL ACTING LIKE A KIDS, SO IMMATURE......

MY TEMPER IS INCREASING GONNA BUST LIKE AN EXPLOSION BETTER STOP IRRITATING ME WHEN I DID NOT EVEN DISTURB YOU MORONS. JUST PRAYING, WISHING, HOPING THAT SOME ONE WOULD HELP TO KILL YOU ALL

2009-08-16T12:13:00.000+08:00

when K yesterday with YS and mei shan sing from 2pm to 7pm then have dinner together, not a good day for singing.. sound like turkey singing. but we have fun eventually, wanted to take a group pic but some one is shy... but still take dun care haha fun !!!

during dinner we chat alot but for some reason we talk till school stuff =.='" whaaa the mood from like 12 story landed all the way to basement 2.... dame it

boring....
still miss my Sec Sch not the classroom but only the music room with my fellow choir member singing as if there is no tomorrow, getting all of us to get ready for stage performance. When stepping in to the stage were everybody starts to quite down there is were our heaven begin, soft piano keys plays and and our voice will sings and at the end the clap of the audience is the music to our ears only on theater, hall or stage is the only places i enjoy, my confidence may not be there but i will do my best to make me feel proud the feeling no one can feel of.

there is time i ask myself why do i join choir during sec 1 without even looking at other CCA booth, and the only ans is i have music in my hearts.

2009-08-03T17:07:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time since i blog and i am back for the dunno how many time. Guys thx alot for being there for me no matter what happen ya indeed we really have alots of fun no matter how tired we are^^ thx brother,sister,rongping,clement and kelvin

2009-07-14T15:47:00.002+08:00

i do not know how to start my post with but E.L you told me to trust and give chances to people around me if not i am not being fair to people who care about me...

i wish to have the determination to try but i do not want to give the chance any more, people can still talk to me and i will still reply but no more trust and chances i do not want the pain and hurts anymore i am extremely tired with stuff like this.

i have 2 friends, we know each other during working, they will try very hard to pull me out for outing even if i reject them to my max just to hold our friendship together, most of the time we do enjoy our self a lot but i will still doubt them by asking myself are they really my friend and i also do find them irritating very irritating i know their good intention but i rather stay at home be left alone listening to my music devise and keep my ear shut off from word's i do not like/want to hear.

the real reason for me to be shut my self in is because i tend to rely on others after a period of time and over trust them and i will only remember and realise only when stuff happen.

sorry E.L i am not able to open up again, this world has no need for friends, who need friends when there is money, money may not buy happiness but at less it make my world go round

life is never fair for me then why make it fair for others? in order to gain something of a same value must be lost (the value can take more then you expected, risk it or drop it)

2009-07-05T06:45:00.002+08:00

this week i really did enjoy myself with poh kim and Aveline with some of their friends,

Monday 29/6, after work slack at Jurong's Playground,

Tuesday 30/6, we went to Sembawang park then walk to Sembawang bottle tree village and from there we walk to Yishun mrt station to meet Aveline's friends and we also brought 3 box of durian to walk to Yishun Dam to eat and slack,

Wednesday 1/7, we went to marsiling to slack at dun really know the place but is somewere near the causeway able to view the sea and malaysia

Thursday 2/7, went working again

Friday 3/7, we went to Vivo to enjoy ourself smoking was not a plan till somthing strike my mind and bother me which i have no idea what is it.... sorry sister and brother i am the way i am i can't control my emotion well something strike my mind and i will feel down and emo a way maybe thinking too much bah..

saturday 4/7, trim my hair...=.="'

Sunday 5/7 TODAY!!! going out to sentosa to enjoy myself and slack since TOMORROW START SCHOOL!!!!
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FCK YOU NBCB YOU ASK ME WORK FOR YOU OK LOR SINCE I LOOKING FOR JOB SEE YOU AS MY FRIEND'S AUNTY I BOUGHT MY PAY DOWN TO MIN $3.50/HOUR WORK 5DAYS A WEEK FROM 10AM TO 10PM OR EVEN LTR...... AND NOW IS ALREADY JULY WHEN YOU WANNA GIVE ME MY PAY ?! HELLOW?! FROM JAN TILL NOW IS ALREADY HALF A YEAR LE LEI LEFT 1K SO HARD GIVE MEH? ...... LAST WEEK SAY LE MONDAY I NEED MONEY FOR SCHOOL YESTERDAY MSG YOU REMIND YOU NOT ASK YOU LEH TEN YOU TELL ME WHAT FCK CLOSE SHOP LE..... THEN DUN KNOW HOW TO MSG BACK IS IT?! DUNNO HOW TO TELL IS IT LEFT 1 DAY WERE YOU WAN ME GET MONEY? BAKA. EVEN WHAT WE CALL SO CALL FRIENDS ALSO GOT LIMIT DE LOR.... IF THATS THE CASE I RATHER TAKE THE MONEY THEN HAVING YOU AS FRIENDS I DUN CARE IF YOU ALL CALL ME MONEY FACE OR WHAT SO EVER CRAP THAT'S MY MONEY, MY HARD EARN MONEY AND I AM NOT LETTING IT GO COMPARE TO MONEY I DUN NEED FRIENDS....

2009-06-25T13:00:00.002+08:00

Life goes on as always....
busy road busy life, a colorful world we once seen has become a black and white world, there is no more entertainment no more joy no more life in it....

i will still continue to blog even when my time is less......

tell me whats right and whats wrong but dun forget there is still right in wrong and there will always be wrong in the rights...

2009-06-21T08:05:00.003+08:00

Help!!! killing from stomach pain, having bad stomach lately.....skipping breakfast and dinner lately due to overslept and work
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Working this few days, it's not that easy like expected no sales means no money... no longer on hourly basis, taking leave equal your lose. haha but manage to know a few friends like Aveline and Poh kim, we are like always going in group laughing while going door to door promoting sales we can even laugh just because of each other reaction, making job much more easier for us.

But how long will our friendship last? cause my feeling tells me it will not last long, i will still try my best to hold everything together and i hope it will last.

Beside them i also get to make friend with a few senior, they are so good at sales so envy them after every night sales you can see some got 8 or more sales so cool lor but i will still get help from them if i need.

they will even teach me easier ways and ways to handle customers. I am starting to love this job but hope nothing will goes wrong too.

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it takes time to gain trust but it only takes seconds to break it...
everything has it's limit but dun think that because we are Gan's that means you can cross it we still love you like always, we will still care for you but our trust for you are gone. you are the planner go ahead but just because of your Boyfriend you bastered us, you watch it , dun forget because of you we all take leaves for you to celebrate your B'day. you say for yourself it's hard to meet us out since we are in different location now but dun forget you can meet him days and nights remember this know you limits know your standard. before it's too late.

Happy Birthday... riko...

2009-06-13T10:43:00.002+08:00

12 June

today was suppose to stay at home till 5.30pm then go to work de in the end kena pull by riko Mei and my others bro and sis to go out and just because of me they change location to woodlands party world miss yam was with us too we really have fun time enjoying our self then about 5.30pm rush down to 888 plaza to meet ST and other member for work we went blk to blk promoting service haha but not me who do the talking but my senior did, he was the one who teach us and guide us haha, next Monday i will need to do the talking but my senior will be there along with us to guide us along.

after going about 4~5 blk i am st were ask to go home since its already 10pm...then i walk back home since the location is so near my house...reach home my body start to feel weird and hot after bathing in cold water i got fever, ache and headache....

2009-06-09T16:59:00.002+08:00

yes just found a job...
but need go through interview... hope pass
the pay might not be alot but at less a income a saving
haha this job timing is very nice 6.30pm ~ 10pm
$50 per day

hope it will be a smooth work

2009-06-07T01:34:00.002+08:00

have a talk to my mum about my stuff even thought not all but i still cant hold my tears and cry, its been a long time since i feel this way while crying..... can't sleep.... listen to funny music but i just dun feel the humor in it, when to facebook to play some games then pass by my friends profile saw him and his friend so dame close as a group i so dame envy.....

i dunno why and what so ever happen to me i need love, i need friends but i dunno i am just a loner no matter how close we can get there is still a gap, a space in between.

this feeling just happen again after few years and it will stay for awhile longer.

i have change lots since sec 2 till now and its going to be worst, Noel and Nazirah you both should know right?

Do know why? and do you think i like it? a happy go lucky guy who turn in to a guy who you know now. you think i like? the more i change the more misery i have the more the pain will hurt.

hah.... remember the time in primary school always doing stuff to make teacher like me always helping them after school even if thats their job i am willing to help even till i am sec school every thing stop and change trying very hard to impress this girl who caught my eyes deeply feel in love with her for years, love her so much till i dun even know if i love her anymore....

i am a hypocrite in front of everybody, i can be a kind with teachers, while at the same time be another kind to my friends and when i reach home i am another kind in front of my parent i have nv shown my true self to anybody even myself and now i dun even know how am i now or maybe thats the real me, a real me who act in front of every body and i dunno, i follow action from everybody who i can clone, i can fail lah fail lah like...., i can do stuff that you have seen before by my friend.

i even wonder friend who say they know me well, do you really know me well? some time i even wonder if i understand my self....

2009-06-06T08:37:00.002+08:00

My life is a mess....

i think i am gonna rot at home.... beside going swimming....really can enjoy in the pool like as if there is nothing to think of...... monday gonna Jurong meet the them for the club trip..... 9.15 at jurong behind popular bookstore .....

2009-05-31T20:30:00.002+08:00

Human kind cannot gain anything without 1st giving in return to obtain something of equal value must be lost and that is all living creature 1st law of equivalent exchange

2009-05-30T01:41:00.003+08:00

Getting busy lately with school work, studies and going for swimming, i am either tired to blog if not seriously dunno what to post... next week gonna be my exam week Monday and Wednesday after that gonna be my holiday.... still planning what to do maybe go swimming? find work? all just gonna rot i dunno...

got summary for my Ens and books on chem but i have no one to accompany to study with.... used to it already bah... society is just plain straight forward being needed you will be look for if not sorry i did not think of you... thats the world....

father came back home early this few days...
today he got us new house phone, vacuum cleaner, and a oven he also brought fruit for the whole family....

2009-05-22T17:34:00.002+08:00

lol this few days will have lots of stuff gonna happen.....stupid, childish, boring stuff is about to happen.... dun like, not happy? then must fight? will fighting really setter everything? or just a desire in you heart? you may have stuff you do not like, for as example his attitude, the way he do stuff or what so ever crap, you dun like him saying "sure fail one, sure fail one" then study if not ignore it, that's his mouth we can't stop what he wanna say like what we all wanna say and will say but always remember i am no better myself and you are no better yourself... no one in this world is perfect not even God himself is perfect

this post is not to side who or what is just my opinion and thoughts

you all did ask me to ask him to join back together as a clique and have fun as like last time but now you are doing this? whats the point?

to make a clapping sound either 1 hand must move to hit another....

2009-05-21T16:18:00.003+08:00

Today did not go to school cause finish phase test last Thursday that's why i no need go school but today got both swimming and chem club still i did not go staying at home was boring beside playing facebook, watch anime and video .

came across videos that are in the same category and all this video all have sad ending due to not being recognize by the public in Singapore, its not only not being recognize but also being make fun of, being look down on and also being discriminate.

there is different people around us all have different ways of thinking yet there is always a group being bullied by people that are stronger in a way. i believe all should treat each other the same despite the way they do stuff and react.

manage to locate one of the films
~ The letter
This story is based on a true life story about a boy struggling with his forbidden love. Rated R21 by MDA.

there are other 3 films i wish to get my hand on
~Katong Fugue
~Keluar Baris (Homecoming)
~Tanjong Rhu (The Casuarina Cove)

all 3 are by Boo Junfeng

2009-05-15T17:09:00.002+08:00

14 may

school sux...

the stupid kelvin... no club dunno how to msg de make me go school fucking early just to sleep... thx got miss hong if not sure die... blah blah blah

afternoon got test so-so practical can past then when want go home noel ask me meet her and triz to practice song for their competition this sat .... play talk slack till 8.30 thanks to the stupid bug fly here and there irritate us then we have to go down to noel house there.... then we saw joey then we play badminton follow by table tennis after that home sweet home... while bathing nose bleed again =.="'

kinda tired lately no mood for every thing accept play meeting friend and etc...

13

2009-05-14T11:23:00.002+08:00

13 May

today was average untill 3 went for swimming, having hell time playing with water and swimming, swim till 6.30 went to shower then wait for some friend to finish bathing then meet with us to go bedok have dinner, i have carrot cake and 2 cup of sugarcane for dinner. we enjoy eating with them we can play talk and eat together the feeling is like er..... how to put it.... no stress very relax....went home at 8.30 or 9pm then reach home 10.30 when bathing half way =.= nose bleed! thick flowing of blood keep flowing for around 10 min or so...then finally stop... then after bathing sleep...

2009-05-12T12:24:00.002+08:00

12 may
......
hehehe
Warning letter......
some how parent will be inform....

school going to sucker it will not be as smooth as what i think...

school sux....

9

2009-05-11T15:08:00.002+08:00

9 May
went out with noel, jx and triz went to teletubies hill slack while waiting for triz to come meet us after her work...

it's so nice to gaze at the moon and stars under the big dark sky... with smooth soft wind blowing on us while lying down in the card board on top of the hill... Jx still have the stiches on his hand... while noel and Jx stilling down together talking i went further up to play with the sparker and matches but its nice to see the sparks not the smoke... so thick and smell... but fun...

went to viva to eat then went to vist park... to play .....

reach home around 12am...

2009-05-07T08:41:00.002+08:00

06 MAY 2009

Today was boring no changes except no PE due to raining then some went to gym and others slack in cafe 2.....

during swimming having fun swimming with fellow mate while every thing finish Wan qi, Aron, Li mei and i took bus 31 to tampines 1 then wan qi went home so the 3 of us went to have subway, woots it might be lame but thats my 1st time eating there >.<'" after that we walk around and have chat then accompany then to buy power jel to boost them up for the next traning haha quite fun we have fun till 8 o'clock going 9 then exchange phone number and say good bye to aron since li mei and i taking bus 168 back home.. then in bus actually going to sleep but we chat till reach woodlands haha then reach home dame tired...

its different for you to do stuff alone and to do stuff in group there is also good and bad in every thing we do but is to depend what we do and how far it's been done....

2009-05-03T04:38:00.008+08:00

LOVE~

will love make you kill?
will love make you die?
what is the feeling that get over me?
for the sec i lose myself.

for once i guess you know what happen,
but you nv question about why it happen.
you stop the thing from coming at you.
but you also stop from giving me the punches...

you care for me despite what happen
you forgive me despite knowing the reason.

you are the one and only one that i am proud of as a friend

thank you

2009-05-03T04:26:00.004+08:00

SORRY

lots of stuff happen to me and people around me...

friday no school went out to T3 with noel triz and singyi walk walk then went to 167 to help out noel then JX came and join us at 167 we really have fun time enjoying till 9pm i .... then JX finger bleed and had to stich up with a total of 4 stich ......sorry..

sat went out with tansy since i promise her to help her classmate out with acting it was fun but tiring since i did not sleep well on the friday night.... reach home bath then lie on my bed but pic of things happen on friday keep hunting me i am very sorry...

JX kor sorry, the more you say nvm the more you do not blame me the more i feel guilty.....
but i promise not to feel that way i will control my anger de.... :'(

2009-04-30T12:11:00.002+08:00

it's only a few days since i blog yet it seems so long

i will start from yesterday wednesday,29 april
morning pe, during lunch eat le then go gym with mat they all then after school went swimming...

today 30 april
wake up with cramp in my hand.... wake up as normal reach school at 7.30 then find miss hong then rest in chem lab wait for then fellow school mate and not in libary blogging, this sat going to school for NDP 2009 traning...

time is running abit too fast for me there is just too less time to do my own stuff just wish to take a break from everything ...

friday holiday!!!
next friday gonna have O level english... wish to stop going for lesson it's just too much too handle .......................................

times wait for nobody including you and me
life may be fun and entertaining but its how you handle every single little things that get in your way.

2009-04-27T13:40:00.003+08:00

did not blog last few days...

saturday went out with noel, tris, JS and sing yi, went swimming then go eat then go play arcade then go libary... my headpain till like fuck then i take cab home...

yesterday com down went to com shop to repair take around 6 hour make me walk in and out of home to bring stuff to com shop....

magange to download song today before going to school.....

bitch

2009-04-24T08:40:00.002+08:00

yesterday was not a good day everything was fine till before school start, saw a cmi bitch walking toward me then talk to me wtf lah do i even know you? u so fking dame extra lah, feel like wacking her up side down...

for you info you are then 1 who come to me not me going to you so
DONT TALK BIG LIKE I COME TO YOU....
DONT TALK TO ME AS IF YOU THE QUEEN cause you are just a bitch
AS ALWAYS keep you stuff to yourself since nobody wanna know what you wanna do, loser

sight pity you dame lots lah

from a queen to a bitch, never mind
now from bitch become loner

why dun you go with jun hao since he is a loner too
oh ya you dun know who is he since you are not in my class..

i will intro you de nvm maybe you two can be couple also... jy bah

BITCH!

21 april

2009-04-22T13:07:00.001+08:00

t0day she nv come what's with her hope she's well take care....

21 April

2009-04-21T08:36:00.002+08:00

on the way to school...
looking at rain fall make me remember my emotional feeling, feel so down, so disrupted, painful just wanna have a good time crying...

Today Christ church sec school's choir gonna perform for SYF... do us proud!! i will be here supporting

this time while sending msg to wish them good luck i dun feel good either i wanna perform with them sing with them do myself proud no matter what the result come out to be... recalling all that time after performing we all want a very good award sliver? or even gold but now i just wanna go and sing with them, sing out loud with them let the audience move with our song and also enjoy the very moment while performing ...

hahas bad feeling driving its way to me no idea why and what is gonna to be but just feeling i have since i was a kid, when this feeling comes some thing bad will come too.. sigh maybe i am just too tired, so wish to go back home and rest

today totally not in mood hope nothing goes wrong like yesterday brain is empty cant think of formula or solution just wanna rest my head, hope i am able to request to apply leave form just for a day or two that will be enought

let me go...
let me rest in peace and i will nv wake again.....

let me fade of just like sugar stir in hot water......

20 april

2009-04-20T19:35:00.002+08:00

Today morning raining....

bad day...
no mood for study.. brain in total blank, cant think of any thing... is it because of the few puff i take... just wanna get over with the CCA principal dialog and do well for my CCA...

wanna change course any course will do tired to think le

today E.Low is not in a good mood no idea why...
E.Lim not in the mood also

i too tired, dropping out from Youth Expedition trip (YEP) trip this trip really gonna take up lots of time... not now for the time being i am just too tired.. still planing to get a job...
part time job to earn some spare cash... why money dun grow on trees? or fall from the sky just like rain? why every thing got to do with time and money? it will be great if money, times and energy never runs out... when will i get my pay? i am suppose to forget about it or what?! we have once agree with each other i work for you and you pay me....its been 2 month le ...

thing i am gonna do in next few month

~~General Certificate in Education Ordinary Level
**Date & Time: Every Friday 2 pm~ 5 pm

~Program Name: Emcee Skills
*Date & Time: 1st run in May & 2nd run in August

~Program Name: Survivor Challenge
*Date & Time: 25 June (Thursday - School vacation)

8am to 5pm

~Service-Learning Talk
*Date & Time: 8 May 2009 (Friday)
2.30pm

~Basic Conversational Japanese Language Course
*Date & Time: 10 July to 31 July (Every Friday)
2.30pm to 5.30pm

thats all for activities

upcoming will CCAS

~Program Name: Swimming Club
*Date & Time: Every Wednesday, 1700 ?1800 hrs; 1 hr/week

~ Community Service Club
*Date & Time: Friday (1430 hrs to 1730 hrs) or Saturday (0800 to 1300 hrs)

~Program Name: Chem Club
*Date & Time: Every Thursday, Time from 8 - 11am. 1 hr / wk (might vary depending on activities).

to see you

2009-04-19T08:43:00.002+08:00

world is always round
chances that you once have
will never just stay there
life is never fair
and dun expect it to be.

world is always around,
and what goes around comes around
right back at your face but it will never be love
we are human not wild animal why must we fight for love?
why must we win love?

love is wider then the sky
deeper then the sea
as hot as the larva
colder then frozen or solid hydrogen

As sour as lime and lemon
but there is a thing that i ever wanted i to have this 'Miracle Fruit'
that turn sour taste in to sweetness.

sat 19/4

2009-04-19T08:26:00.002+08:00

Today the weather is scorching hot, went to CWP with my mum and sis to buy fan after paying we took cab back since my mum cant stand the hot weather once reach home i help to build up the fan since its in pieces, went to bath at the same time check my phone the saw sing yi's number, she has miss call me around 2 time while i am away so i call back to check with her, blah blah blah and i finally reach CWP in time to accompany Noel, Rachel, Joey, Sing Yi, Jian ting watch 17 again quite nice but the show is like expected one since the trailer was out, it means the trailer show the main point on the movie but its touching since among 4 girls i went out with 3 girl cry... 2 girl ask for tissue 1 use my jacket.... sigh... but ok lah i dun really mind.
after that went to time zone to play a few games then tour more than word, mini toon, and action city. then went i saw some one my mood drop for some reason... at first when saw him/her only mood drop still not that bad but when him/her goes too close with him/her, i ......feel it again .

sad but went to libary then went home at around 8
i am like starving...

chiled

2009-04-16T07:00:00.002+08:00

whats the problem with you can you kinda grow up? avoid ? then dun make it obvious, love her go ahead with it hate her tell her! u have leadership in you but the way you use it make us look down on you why must you put yourself so high up you are a human just like us you have no power to order us to what you expect, i know i am not much better then you or maybe worst then you at less when it come to leadership i dun order around i dun push their pride all the way to the ground unlike you please you just think you are the best and yes you are indeed the best, best in being bossy, arrogant, annoying, acting.

please la not that i wan you to change in to what we expect you to be but at less be humble and when it comes to working put your personal gauges aside

time

2009-04-16T06:44:00.002+08:00

time is run low on me this week school just start not long and today is already Thursday every thing seem so fast ahead... finally got 3 new cca now longer in dragon boat due to time and commitment so i join up
chemistry club,
student community service Friday and Saturday if there is event and
swimming since its on Wednesday only

yesterday got swimming and kinda slacking not use to that but love the water...
chemistry club is a cca that should be fun, wish to part of the leaders in it...

saw Nazirah(nursing) , Jia bao(hair styles) and beatrice(beauty therapy) in campus ite east...

Hi

2009-04-12T09:28:00.002+08:00

it's been almost a week since i blog and school gonna open for us Tomorrow!
starting to hate blogging too much to type about but sometime nothing to type about...
always unbalance..

for now i will just briefly type out what i have been doing, and i will start from
Friday, 10 April 2009

when to noel house wait for her then went to viva food court to study and also i need help with my HOMEWORK!! balancing equation 36 question to do! since i have been slacking for 2+ weeks. haha but thanks to noel i finally did finish 3 quarter of it but noel got to go to work so i went of with her also. at around 3.30 went to meet my friendster friend nv seen him before but we had fun we buy movie ticket and have a walk from Doby to Taka since he need to check up something then i accompany him at around than at 6.30 he say he need go for prayer then i go walk alone since he will be back, went i went in to this shop i saw them sell wine and this white wine cost about $28+ and i am so gonna get it but have not.. depend on when thats all then we rush back to doby to catch fast and furious 4 it was nice but less drifting more long speeding the story line was short but the movie last for 2 hour or so rating 3.5 or 4 /5 after that we went home...

Saturday 11 April

stay at home like almost the whole day then my sis accompany go shop and save to buy grocery spend almost $50 on a few item... so expensive then went back home help my mum with the cooking then while my sis is sleeping i do my last 11 question of homework haha this time i not only finish i also figure out how to do some others question that i have no idea how to do.. i am so happy about it it's been a long time i think till like that.. but i use lots of time to do this few question and if question like this do come out for exam i sure fail.. give me 2 hour also not enough...

Sunday 12 april

today gonna watch cartoon till 11 then rest bah tomorow got school lei...

finally school reopen
die M.E.L sure gonna scream and yell again... hate her smile..

ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh

2009-04-07T17:01:00.002+08:00

SHUT THE FUCK UP AND GET LOST !!! YOU BITCH AND BASTARD F OFF U UNDERSTAND THE MEANING?! U ARE NOT ONLY A PAIN YOU ARE ALSO ANNOYING WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?! YOU WAN ME DEAD IS IT!? THEN COME KILL ME STAB ME IN THE HEART AND BURN ME CUT ME IN TO PIECES AND FEED THE ANIMAL GO AHEAD AND DO WHAT YOU WAN I AM ALL HERE FOR YOU KILL ME I AM GOING TO BE CRAZY WHY ARE YOU ALL DOING THIS TO ME THE PAIN IN MY HEAD IS KILLING ME WHY? ARE YOU STILL LETTING ME LIVE? KILL ME!!!!!! I BE THANKFULL TO YOU

2009-04-07T16:50:00.002+08:00

Love is like a drug,
once feed on,
there's no turning back.

Life is like a empty paper,
filled with nothing,
waiting for the owner,
to colour it

i know the choice and know the result
but i still go for it...

i know life is full of colour,
but i still colour it black,

life is a wonderful word which have precious meaning to it
but the only meaning to this word for me means Living In a Fuck up Environment

2009-04-01T11:58:00.002+08:00

it's just a example i will post on youtube to add to my video collection^^

2009-03-31T16:35:00.002+08:00

found this vid when trying to find music for a video i am making quite funny even though i do not understand

sad sia having fever today cannot go out....

The story that was nv been revealed

2009-03-30T15:49:00.006+08:00

for the summary Click here for people who wish to know and busy at the same time

Once they live a boy name KH he is the only child in the family, his father is dead due to mental curse after 1 year KH have been born in to this world his mother have been ill after her husband die and yet she is still working 2 jobs to feed KH and herself and support KH to go to the best school, but KH have never disappoint his mum.

He top the whole school even when he has no friend to help him out or anything but he is the one who always help around in school helping his friend when they fall despite how much they look down on him because he has no father, he also helping teacher to carry books, always there to be the 1st to volunteer no matter how tough the jobs are, some of the teacher even pay him for the volunteer jobs after knowing his family matters the teachers envy his mum to have such a good kid, KH never disrespect anyone, he is also known as a young innocent, cheerful and humble boy till now

All goes well till he was 13, his mum was terribly sick she can neither walk nor eat KH start to look for doctor but non know what is that illness, then a stranger appear to him and told him that "there is this demon who have this power to cure your mum it even have the power to resurrect dead people from the grave" KH never ask for what is the consequence and he carry his bag and start off the journey to the place were the stranger pointed to in the map

He traveling for 4days 3 night KH finally reach to the cave of the demon, but the demon cannot touch him nor go near him and the little ghost had to avoid him, the demon ask why is it so he is just a child with no power in him how is it so that all little ghost cannot reach him even the demon can not touch him and the demon start to chant some chant over KH to reveal his true identity. After a while KH feel the pain on his back and when he turn back he saw a shining wings that glow like a sun and all the ghost bow down to him and ask what is his wish and get out of here as soon as possible cause the glow of the sun on his wings is too strong and they will all vanish if he do not leave. KH himself was surprise what has become of him and and the demon told him that his is also the son of Blazerest and Valentina God and Goddess of Epist after telling him this the demon throw him a bottle of lime light juice for him to bring back to his mum and the demon hide away nv to be seen KH have to travel back to his home town to give the potion to his mum but on his way back every body avoid him hid from him and he even scare him mum till her death.

KH was helpless and hopeless thinking of ways to return to his actual look no one love him like before not even the teachers that once help him everyone start to think his is the one who kill his parent some say he is a jinx, a curse that curse his own parent, an omen that will bring disaster to the country and had him chase out of the island.

Days after days KH become a angel full of emotional, loneliness and anger in him he is depress and wanting to hurt people around him like how people mistreat him but he still have the little angel in him despite his wings have turn dark red and he start hurting himself with the unwanted memories he had but deep in his heart wishing to fade his memories using the power "Twilight Memories" own by Kazuki a creater of this mystic power but he is no were to be found. Will KH be able to find Kazuki? Will he able to get that power from him or will he go to the point of no return?

to be continue......>.< hahaha

woots durain

2009-03-30T12:29:00.006+08:00

whaa my father got us 2 D24 durain cool it's been such a long time since i tasted a real durain lol but can feel my body going to be sick soon gotta drink more water and avoid heaty food sad lost my wallet and gonna be sick soon... what a good time for all this to come during school holiday >.<>

kazuki miss
~Riko
~Yuki (miss you dearly)
~miki
~chanST
~Nazirah
~Lenny
~kenji
~Ramsy
~BM
~JD

MIA wallet

2009-03-30T08:54:00.002+08:00

WHAAAA LOST MY WALLET AGAIN !!!! WTH $30+ FLY LE... LUCKY GOT NEW EZLINKWHAAA WALLET LOST!!!! fucking Siana lo now i am in finance crisis i dun think i can go out for this few days.... still got to pay my O level english !!!..... sorry kenji i did not attend you Bday party sorry CARD....

Home Sweet Home^^

2009-03-25T17:33:00.002+08:00

came back after a 3 day 2 night camp meet lots of potential leader i get to see a bigger picture of the meaning leadership, the camp was fun and enjoyable we spend 3days 2 night playing, laughing, cheering and motivating^^ there is also time were we enjoy the lecturing during lesson
the food was ok at less got a air conditional cafeteria the bedroom also but not the whole of the 40+ boys in a room but only 5 to 7 in a room at 1st Raju, Me, YS, Gavin, Jeff, Daniel and junhao suppose to be in a room but due to some thing RAJU COMPLAIN then all change room.... but not all his fault cause like what he always say:" aiya the management here not good la"... i am glade to be in my team, GROUP 3 cause we spend alot of time barking like mad but we totally enjoy ^^ haha hope to be in blazes 2

Sat 21/3

2009-03-22T10:19:00.002+08:00

omg wake up late say wan meet noel they all go gym at 7.30 meet at CWP but in the end i wake up at 10.30am sorry you guys very tired did not sleep well... after that meet akira went TAS but today no event... then went back to woodland then catch a movie "Hotel for dogs" nice show funny and touching at less a 4/5 rating..

19 march

2009-03-20T07:19:00.003+08:00

Today got school at 1 o'clock but morning got NYAA briefing then i reach school by 10.. lucky got raju if not i sure bored to death...

after school we all went home together then thanks to the stupid i need to alight with raju and dee cause the mrt terminate at yew tee.. wait for 5 min then the next train come some more full pack... stupid lor after finishing bathing i rush out to meet Ys lucky he also haven ok lol but have to wait for him and his friend.. reach st James power house around 8pm still have too wait.. but at less manage to make 5 new friend 2 of them is Ys's friends the other 3 is Zen's friends at 1st quite boring after that also boring...but saw some ex school mate and as well as 3 of my DB Senior suprise to see them there lol but i 1st time going too cubing cannot blame me slightly not use to it but over all ok enjoy seeing CB not chee bye but chio bu ok lah only abit only and the music that keep me alive for 4 hour plus? OK LA not bad but no wine and beer... this is the only thing that sux... after that take taxi down to Bt badok eat mac then wait for mrt then go home lol wth i feel asleep the ride all the way to bishan... stupid lor just reach home ...
wan sleep liao ltr still got o level english lesson AT SIMEI ITE!!!!

jUST A POEM TO POST

2009-03-18T12:34:00.003+08:00

To think of you day and night,

make me wept like a boy
with the laughter you had
you put a smile on my face

Thinking of the past
we had together,
holding hands like never end

Wishing for a sexual desire
but you will give me a kiss and
end with 2 sentence saying
" it's not the time" and
" it's not the end"

NOT REFERING TO ANYBODY!

2009-03-17T12:24:00.002+08:00

A joke of my life i am just not ready for love and everything 1st time stead and I REQUEST FOR THE STEAD AND ALSO WITH A BREAK UP LOL I FINALLY FEEL NO MORE BURDEN BY YOU ANYMORE i am free from you and i am happy for you and myself i can tell from the way you msn me is not you either there is some one with you, someone ask you to say all this if not you already have some one you love which is not me you are nv brave to face the word break up and you reply me with "anything" after that you went MIA and sudden reply crap msg what you trying to do? what is that you hiding from me? forget it i do not wish playing game with you any more...

Sorry Yellow 13 roses just for you

2009-03-16T17:57:00.004+08:00

i dunno how to say and dunno what to say!

you are always going round the bushes and finally ask me!
i have already told you before we stead i have no feeling for you but i will try to be the best stead and try my best to return the feeling for you i had lots of stuff to do and think about and i will still take out some time to msg and call you, you call this no time for you? your course always end 2 to 3 hours earlier then mine your travel back and forth is only 1 hour plus or so min, mine is 2hour plus, sometime think about it not that i no time for you but sometime you have too much time for yourself! i have never blame you for the mistake you do i will still be there for you and this only the 6 day since we stead and you already lose trust on me, when i am testing you by saying lets break the ans you give suprise me, you reply "as you wish" that mean i not even importance in your heart since you cant trust me and we do not have time for each other then let it go lets break!

Yellow 13 roses just for you

since i am you 5th stead nothing seems to bother you btw just treat it as we were just playing games

15 march

2009-03-15T18:40:00.002+08:00

finally update new song...
still watching one piece....

1 main problem i still have not do research on homosexual marriage for tomorrow life skill lesson, feel like dropping out from the debating at 1st filled with confident but now no longer ....

English compo have not finish...

sat booked going to TASvy again yay more singing gonna join them for sure

Tomorrow Monday dunno what to do Emo again? tomorrow 10.30 start lesson go school early?
break time go library blog? during life skill write poem again? after go home alone? and start smoking while waiting for 168 again? i left with 1 stick how? how to last? how can help me buy?? i am back to alone again how long will it take me to die due to loneliness?

14th march

2009-03-15T08:44:00.002+08:00

today went to eat breakfast with my mom and sis finally a day we all went out eat together, its been a long time since we have this moment together, i told here i will be joining A Capella club outside then she told me to be careful not to meet with the wrong group as in dun join them if you see them smoking taking drugs or drinking but i already start smoking and have been drinking and when she told me all this i felt guilty, i feel sorry but i am still gonna continue in it for some reason...

went back home around 12.30 pm get ready change and go out meet akira then we went to tanjong pagar to meet them but we were late so direct go to tapac to find them at 1st we were looking for the place then dunno if that's the correct room anot so did not went in 1st then there is this guy who came out then i ask him if this is the room for TAS youth voices and then we went in ^^ it's fun back to singing the life the passion is all back after 3 month of not singing.. they are all marvelous just by hearing them sing the melody will start to make me sway with it and i have so much fun just by listening can't wait to blend in with them.. after every thing it's already 5 plus 6 and the 4 hours just pass so fast.

after that remember that ys they all went out in the afternoon and dun think that tey will go home that fast and decided to call them to ask them were are they and wanted to join them but during call i find no reason to join them so instead ask them if there gonna have dinner so i can meet them for dinner but they say they are not so nvm i went home since akira need meet his parent at orchard.. then went back home alone, have dinner alone feeling very down trying to tell my self i must not be like this friends will not always be there for me forever i am the one who will be by myself till the day i die so why feel alone? then went back home and rest....

sorry dear for not accompany you to wild wild wet sorry..

2009-03-13T13:18:00.002+08:00

I so in love with smoking everytime when i am down, thinking too much i will always take a stick enjoy the few puff everytime before school during school after school it help me dame lots even if i cant walk due to dizzyness i will still feel great for the one moment i feel happy, feel so high, no stress to bother me, no thing to bother me, no thinking but a big smile filled up my face i feel so light as if there is no more burden on me no need to think who am i what am i but just me and my wonderland but it will soon be over cause now i left with a stick anyone help me i wan more!!!!!!

2009-03-13T12:51:00.008+08:00

Why is it still like this what else do you want? i dunno what they say and i have no right to find out but can't you see i am trying my best? but i can tell that you all still the same there is still no different compare to Monday either we both have nothing to say or just everything doesn't seems to be right again since whats done is done i am still sorry and this is the reason why from the begining i do not wan to say out but since you already suspect or already been said by her i have no choice but to say out the truth

and this is my side of view.

you say before no one is avoiding me but the feeling i get is being avoid

maybe we are living in a different world
the gap is still far apart but i know it is closing
i do not know how to talk to you guys anymore
but i still wish everything is back to normal
even if we go back to normal i can still see that some how you all will treat me different

I HATE MYSELF, I AM SORRY....

yesterday you ask me after school why so emo you dun even call my name, why am i so emo in class i am trying to blend in by sitting with Jeff and Dian jin in the end i am still left alone what else can i say? what else do u wan me to say? what else do you wan me to do?, i am embarrass after all this how am i going to speak up like normal? like the way before all this happen...?

i dunno what to do anymore i know you and a few is trying but its gonna be harder then just "ok settle le"

Something i wan tell 97 ,,,, Dinner with my one and only

2009-03-12T19:49:00.003+08:00

Today school was boring even though things has been settle but... weird feeling is still there i still have a feeling that some how there are still avoiding me but maybe it's just my feeling..sorry i dun mean to avoid you all de is just that the feeling that some of you are some how avoiding me is too strong...sorry to walk a way after you talk to me but still thanks for every thing and this will take a while longer the i expected for me to join you all back...

code breaker u should know what is 97

after school nothing much to do then dear MSG me if wan eat dinner ^^ i so happy until i saw my 2 other sec classmate then mood drop... expected a candlelight dinner but w/o the candle of cause
then some how have a debating with my friend in LJS then after that sent my dear till orange juice shop then i went home

Whaaa

2009-03-12T04:32:00.002+08:00

win le lor cannot sleep liao.... wake up at 3+ then wan go back sleep cannot then rest till 4.20 then wake up.. wha lao the mind game really killing me, you the best Le lor you directly push me over the limit lor i totally confuse, scare and in total panic i very scare you will avoid me after the truth so i keep on holding to it...... Please no more mind games before i really kill myself.. a total Torture

Finally

2009-03-11T19:12:00.000+08:00

finally all over sorry all for the trouble and misunderstanding.... SORRY

Parts of my thoughts

2009-03-11T12:11:00.005+08:00

Stuck in this real world,
soul in the wonderland,

It just hurt so much to think of you when you were nv there
I am always having pain in the head with my cell killing off my brain.
Finding purpose to keep me happy but the unhappy past had kept hunting me with no mercy,

I wish to fade off just like my memories i had, but the memories that fade are thoughts that should not be casted away

GODS, Saints, angels, who ever out there Please take me aways for my sake, i have enought of all craps in this world, banish me, vanish me,distory me for all you want, Please, Sorry and Thank you for helping IF you had helped...

To All

2009-03-11T12:09:00.001+08:00

I dun care what you going to do to me,

or to say stuff i wish not to hear,

i dun care how much you misunderstand me,

cause i am not here to let you give comment.

To her

2009-03-11T12:04:00.003+08:00

I am sorry to stead with you,
when my love is not her for you,
i will try my very best to treat you well,
but when you are down i am not sure if i can be here for you.

I wish not to break your heart,
but i am scare to leave you a scar,
i will try to be the best,
best stead you ever had.

To you alone and only you

2009-03-10T19:16:00.004+08:00

See Teng you say you love me and you very sure about it and we have know each other for 4 years and 3 month le and we always have fun time joining sing contest and sing at your house playing game together and now i am look for a person who love me and also care for me.

i dare not promise to be there for you everyday,
or be there for you when you need me every time

but i promise when you need me my hand phone will always be here with me for you to ring
if you wan go out sat and sun will always be free for you even if i just finish school i can meet you in Cwp have dinner together or some thing

since we have much thing in common DO YOU WAN BE MY STEAD? SERIOUS !

a post with no title

2009-03-10T12:09:00.002+08:00

I know you not long,
we are still friends,
the stuff i say is not all meant to you,

i dunno what you are feeling,
but you can tell we both are some how avoiding each other,
there is some stuff i may have said and i am here to say sorry

you know me not long,
and we still not really know each other well
trust me it will soon be over so please wait awhile,

please dun ask me if i wan setter cause i also dunno how
i am only able to tell you i have a serious mood swing
so i have problem controling my attitude,
and there is times i will think alot no matter how simple thing my seems to be,

so now you should know i am trying having problem with you it is me just me so... relax it will soon be over...

Hate you HATE ME HATE EVERYBODY

2009-03-08T04:02:00.005+08:00

why must you know so much, can't you tell i am trying to avoid something?!
are you blind? don't you have feeling? can't you see i am try my best? I REALLY HATE YOU! HATE YOU TO THE CORE!, WHY MUST YOU SAY OUT?, CANT I HAVE MY OWN IMAGINATION?! I AM UNLIKE YOU HAVING PEOPLE TO LOVE YOU HAVING THE CHANCE TO LOVE BACK ,WHAT ABOUT ME?! I DUN NOT HAVE, I SUCK! you are right i am a LOSER,WEAK, PATHETIC GUY FROM THE BEGINNING.

I DRINK EVEN IF I AM BAD DRINKER, I SMOKE EVEN IF I SUCK AT SMOKING and do you know what I AM SO 5 CM AWAY FROM TAKING DRUG!!! trying my best to keep a way my emotion as if i am wearing a mask every day even if i am dieing from the pain within me i will still put on a smile till the end of the day. So what if i am looking for the other partner, I KNOW MYSELF BETTER THEN ANY ONE OF YOU.

DO YOU KNOW WHY I ALWAYS EMO?
YOU THINK I ENJOY MAKING MYSELF A STRANGER TO EVERYBODY?
DO YOU KNOW THE THING THAT EVERYBODY DID IS ALREADY BECOME PART OF THE
SCAR ON MY HEART EVEN IF IT'S THE SLIGHTEST WORD YOU SAY? DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS WHEN YOU JUST SUDDENLY RECALL IT? OR WHEN SOME ONE MENTION IT?

you say you gone through lots then all of us, are you sure?

remember when i 1st step in to ITE my classmate say they miss sec sch life because of the thick and thin they been through what about me what memories do i have? i totally hate my sec 3 and 4 life wasting my 4 years waiting for a girl that never return even if i recall it now i find myself Stupid and Idiot treating friend with trust and respect in the end still got back stab by them even until then i dun even dare to confront them KNOW WHY? cause i do not have much FRIENDS.. last year august finally create blog and finally found ways to realise my anger in the end they found out about my blog and all confront me by whacking me up in the car park! THEY BLAMING ME THEY CANT SEE THEY IN WRONG ALL MY FAULT... i finally dun remember the word Friends any more no meaning to the word , i dun trust myself, i trust Nobody i will not give a dame to anybody who see me not happy, if u wan shoot me for the thing i do that make you not happy dun blame me for doing the samething back cause i have enough of this crap.... spamming? backstabbing? putting words in to my mouth and still be proud as if you did nothing wrong? ALL WATCH OUT DUN GO OVER MY LIMITS FOR I DO NOT KNOW WHAT I WILL DO!

Emotional

2009-03-08T00:43:00.005+08:00

I am not EMO, ok maybe a little, it is just that either i have nothing to say if not i am not in the mood UNDERSTAND?!

DUN PRETEND TO THINK THAT U KNOW EVERYTHING CAUSE U DON'T DO U KNOW I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH BUT I CANNOT SAY?! I AM TRYING MY BEST TO KEEP IT A SECRET!

DUN EVEN THINK OF ASKING ME WHO IS IT OR WHAT .... DO, CAUSE IF I TELL YOU, YOU WILL NOT TALK TO ME ANYMORE AND I CAN 100% GUARANTEE WE WILL NOT BE FRIEND ANYMORE

PLEASE I DO NOT HAVE MUCH FRIEND LE, IF I SAY YOUR GROUP WILL TOTALLY IGNORE ME

Friday 6 march

2009-03-07T11:20:00.002+08:00

yay today no school!!

then today go out with Ys, Jeff, Daniel, Suffian and Marcus and Joanne
actually wan go ktv but nv go coz no free 4 hour... then we go Bugis meet Kenneth then accompany him buy bag after that we all go Arab street to smoke Shisha then also smoke mabarlo mentor 3 stick but then after the 2nd stick i start to dizzy le dunno why maybe long time no smoke le then now start too fast my body cannot take it... nvm slowly but smokking then dizzy feel good sia dunno y quite high de then after finish around two hour ltr then go eat then before go back smoke again then go home.... thats all

7 march

yay today going to celebrate Sing yi Birthday hope it will be a good one haha
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY

2009-03-06T10:10:00.002+08:00

I just know you not long,
I am always there when you are down
I so wish i can do more to make you forget the past
there is time i wish to get closer to you
To hug you, kiss you and hold you in my arms.

I am not cool looking nor smart
I love to sing but not a good singer
and i also have some bad attitude
i do not know sweet talks to make you blush happily.

and word i say sometime will offend people so i do not have much friends...
all the friend i have are all in groups if this group start to fall out with me i will lose 5 to 10 friend in a go

i dunno if you will read this, i dunno if you care
i dunno why i type so much but i really wish you care
i think of you day and night missing you every min and sec
i really wish you will walk to me and tell me you are there
there for me when i am down.

and all i have to say is stay be me dun leave me i promise to take good care of you with your child waiting to be deliver in to this world..

I Love You

sunday 1st march

2009-03-01T19:09:00.002+08:00

today went to my cousin new house to celebrate...his house...then got buffeh and ktv then got 2 girl sing also ok lah... not bad

thats all bah tomorrow got TEST!!! have not study .... dun care le lah... lazy study...

28 feb

2009-03-01T01:35:00.002+08:00

Today outing with only Ys and Jeff actually wan go Clarke quay see chio bu de but raining then pour YS cold water...in the end we go vivo city shop then see what Ys wan buy... whaa he loaded lor wan buy de shirt all ex de lor.. 1 pants can cost up to $165 1 only lei...whaa still say me loaded..
then continul go walk lor then eat LJS ( not Lan JiaoS but is Long John Silver^^) whaa they talk about girls and i dun understand.. then say i have not grow up ask me eyes big big... halow dun play play sia scarly i know even better then u all sia HaHaHa then after that Ys meet his friend then he say Jia Wen coming whaa i so happy sia at less got 1 i know.. my mood from 1 story fly to heaven lor then while waiting my mood slow drop... then when see Ys friends i look for Jia wen but nv see then they say you nv come... whaa my mood already drop to 12th story when waiting now from 12th story drop to 1st floor le and still continue dropping.... after that i and Jeff also sian sian de lol then i and him join money buy mabarlo mentor ( hope he dun finish all) then after that go walk with his friends wan catch movie but nv.... den after that dunno wan go were then they plan.. after 5 min we go to cathay to play dota but no space then wan go tahman play den only i woodland so i say i go home lor then they wan eat but i and jeff dun wan eat so we go starbuck order a java chip then play poker...till they come out.. they eat like eating a whale like that can take up to 1 hour plus sia... we also ok lah we enjoy much also despite being emo some time.. over all enjoyable...^^

26 Feb

2009-02-26T18:57:00.004+08:00

Today no school due to group 1 test,
Today also got plan want go ktv but nv go le

Jeff Get Well Soon!!
u can do it without it the hang on!!

Hope Saturday the outing will be a success one

wed 25 feb

2009-02-25T19:51:00.002+08:00

Today was quite ok untill when wan go home... saw someone Emo then dunno y i also nv talk le... jie sorry lor say le dun pei him emo still turn emo....

Think about the Sad, painful, hurting past then got the feel like wanna cry but nv already promise must stay strong le...

then cannot tahan then in the end pei Eileen go home cause canot stand him le emo some more i sure can die.... Sorry eh Eileen say accompany you take bus go home in the end make u more headache and lonely...

the bus trip was like from around 5 to 7.30 lol ok lah at less got pei Eileen mah so ok lor

when in bus 169 From AMK to woodland it was raining then there is a pause for 3 min and i saw a rainbow in the grey cloudy sky and the rainbow is kinda weak and it's fading then it start to rain again when this happen i was thinking the weather is just like my feeling but 1 thing regarding the rainbow, rainbow mean happiness so i was thinking the happiness is for ltr on of my life or soon how long will it last and how come directly after happiness it pour again?....

Why is loving other so hard, Why being love also hard.
Why loving other will hurt myself?

LOve.. sux...

sentosa outing ^^

2009-02-21T23:49:00.004+08:00

Outing with YS,Jeff,Diyana,Raju,Marcus, kenneth,Joanne,Eileen,Dainel and sufwan

whaa today 7 o'clock wake up get ready go sentosa but 9 then step out of house coz need to wait for Joanne ask her don le call me nv call sia....>.<>kenneth, then when wan play volly ball again it start to rain and then stop for 3 time the last rain last for 30 min but we have fun time playing true or dare and also do stuff to prevent us from feeling cold example cover ourself with "mats" and stay close together after that when still raning we pack up and run to the toilet and bath after the bath the rain stop and we walk to the train and take the train back to vivo to eat after that YS, jeff,joanne,marcus,kenneth and me went to marcus house down stair play poke then lost till very ...... but still have fun then all take cab back home then sleep.... even thought the weather is bad, not much of the game even if the burn is worse i still must say overall i had enjoy myself alot i hope there is more this kinda outing^^ YS plan plan plan lol YS brain wan bust le hahaha

this is the pic i can get ( from Eileen )

hahaha pic of YS having sand bath we even deco him with vollyballs for .....and pile up long and thick sand on his ..... to for the shape of......^^ not really sick but more of fun lol

20 feb 2009

2009-02-20T19:40:00.002+08:00

wah lao today funny sia after accompany Eileen, Ys, and Daniel go eat lunch le we go back school play ti di with afika then play until forget time then went up to class remembering is B05-28 but it is not then go up to B06-28 still cannot find then we went in to class B05-28 to check if our class change to other rooms or what then the teacher say B05-29 then go there but also wrong class lei then i and Jeff very du lan cannot find class room some more Lev 1 keep spraying the pesticide covering the whole school with white smoke then after walking around for 30 min then found the class which is at CLASS B04-28 WTH lor forget the class waste time walk round clime up and down stair sia stupid sia....

14 feb valentine day

2009-02-15T20:38:00.002+08:00

1st of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY LENNY!!!

not going to post much about 14 Feb

went to Tris performance with sing yi and Benson...
till 5 then wan go ktv de coz Tris win two 4 hour free voucher but only for Monday to Friday before 6 pm.... nvm then wan go watch movie but no show to watch..... sad sia after that Benson went home left three of us.. then we buy 2 pack of sparklers,1 lighter,1 big pack of light stick,1 big pack of matchstick contain 8 to 10 box then we go Esplanade then we walk to singapore river there play sparklers and light stick then sing yi play with the match stick and box till llpm... after that we go mac then go take mrt to woodland then sing yi go home i go tris house's down stair then we chat and play poker then chat again then play again then around 4am we go eat breakfast after then rest awhile then play poker again then at 6.30 i go off and tris accompany wait for bus then go home wha... i in bus wan sleep wan sleep sia can die sia the feeling wan take cab no cab wait for bus also so long... in the end reach home bath then sleep... sleep till 3 pm then go cut hair ..

now wan go sleep liao still dame tired btw thanks sing yi tris benson and fang accompany me for this valentine even if u only accompany me a while i still wanna thanks u all and also HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!!!!

Whalao tomorrow got test... monday!!!!

sunday 8Feb

2009-02-09T13:01:00.003+08:00

whoo yah finally go bai nian again but this time is Ramsey de house went there around 3 actually plan to go there earlier but of some delay.... went there kenji also there le with some of the christ church sec school friends by ramsey de also there quite bored sia cause ramsey busy playing mahjiong with his friend.... then i and kenji talk crap, quite stupid lor...then after that rams mum came back with food from KFC and PIZZA hut then all eat after that 5~7 of us play 21 dots then we play like siao sia all bet min 50 cent max 2 dollar then very messy sia after that after the game i win around $3 plus only after that slack a bit then drink tiger follow by volka with F&N orange wha lots of ppl wan drink volka but drink a bit only then there is this 1 couple drink till body red sia then some dizzy most os them go crazy as in very high like that for 1st time 2 group of ppl dunno each other just because we drunk, high we have fun like hell as if we know each other for weeks already, then we play mah jiong lol i dunno play sia just tikam play only... after that help pack up the went home at 10.30pm

fucking hell 9 feb got phrase test haven study yet pro sia drink and play untill nv study.....

* updating post

2009-02-05T22:01:00.002+08:00

today morning dun even feel like waking up body ache again must get hold of the ache... went swimming with jun hao today in the morning coz our lesson start at 1pm ... then go to campus haven try the food there... then meet our life skill teacher having fun time talking and eating at the same time half way during lesson i Daniel and Jeff went to the gents to wash our hands thanks to the pipe so oily then our hand all black black de .... after when want go black to class so dame lucky lor we saw miss Eileen coming out of her class room directly in front of us then Jeff they all went back to class without me what a bastered... after talking to her she seems nice again but still being tense when with her like i can not put my guard down must be prepare every min what to do or say when with her sigh.... this will take time...

tomorrow 1st lesson for O level English..Happy!!
tomorrow got lesson cannot go DB.....Sad!!!

why always crash sia wented to go for db sia some more tomorrow doing weights going to be fun sia......

in school during ens lesson

2009-02-03T13:16:00.004+08:00

juz ended Ens lesson lots of conversion to do feeling fuck up thanks to .... as a student do what u should do and mind your owe business. to her BTW WHO tell you i only listen TO ONE GIRL HELLOW YA I ONLY LISTEN TO YOU WHO WAN TO STEP ON YOUR TAIL WHAT EVER WE DO THERE IS ALWAYS INCORRECT AND THEREFORE STILL KENA SCOLDED ...

IS THIS COURSE REALLY WHAT I WAN?
IS THIS COURSE WHAT I LIKE ?
IF NO HOW LONG CAN I LAST IN THIS COURSE?

I REALLY WANT TO GIVE UP!!!!!
NOT ONLY THE PROBLEM I MENTION EARLIER BUT ALSO WITH THE TOPIC FOR ENGINEERING SCIENCE IS MORE ON PHYSICS AND MATHS THIS ARE THE TOPIC WHICH I HATE THE MOST!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

totally miss the study in sec school!

today 30 Jan

2009-01-30T19:50:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AN NI

today maybe a short day in school but due to my CCA i reach home at 7.30pm and even thought the lesson is short but lots of stuff happen like my fuck up CA think that she is the queen of our class not only this she also do not trust us and expect us to reach her standard is like what she tell us to do we must do and there is no explanation on why and how, is like WTF lor she think we who her Dog ar? her Robot ar? please lor she human we also right better dun push us to the limit for we will not know what we will do btw is my friend nv ask me to help u think i will bother if she already got so many guys helping her what for she ask me to help? and if helping friends are wrong then tell me whats are friends for? Tell me then is friend really for badmouth, backstabbed or more what is the real meaning about friends....... sigh this is really "LIFE" =Living In Fuck up Enviroment like what vall also say about this world.....

sigh ok no more badstuff
i got a good news^^

I....
PASS.....
MY......
ENGLISH O LEVEL ENTRY TEST...
YAY!!!!!!!!!

i am so gona work hard for this exam..
gambate henry

Happy Chinese 牛 year

2009-01-26T10:54:00.002+08:00

woots Chinese new year is already here that also mean January is about to end that is a bad sign for me because once January is over serious work start to come in were i must be serious in what i do to be the best in my course, i am no longer a secondary school boy were we can do whatever we want and play around hope to develop Discipline, Integrity, Leadership, Perseverance, Responsibility and also working attitude. My course is very complicated there is lots of formula to memorize and also drawing to be completed but it's good that there are still people who can help me around they are my friend even though this year just started have not reach an end yet i still must say thanks for everything including the laughter .

Btw my house got dog also le Yay but the dog is for my father, sad sia nv got to play with it... btw my dog breed is husky wait till i up load it's pic ^^ ok gtg will update sometime..

12 jan monday

2009-01-13T11:47:00.002+08:00

yo guys back from school after dragonboat tought i can say have to run do circuit push up and more acctually last friday went for the test already wanted to give up as i cant cope with their standarts and more.... but today after going there i meet this guy also from dragon boat but he join and have also quited last year but he join back this year with us juniors as i am resting he is also there cause he getting dizzy due to the run so i and him have a nice long talk he also say that in order carry on in DB you must control your mind cause body if easy to get tired must push on... and more and also after talking to the senior i feel more motivated by the word he say is ok that u r weak, we are here to train with you together as a team. hard to find team like this it also serve a strong meaning to me telling if i just go my own way do what ever i wan i am not the 1 suffering but is the whole team...

time running out now using school libary to type this "yesterdays post"

Today CCa selection day

2009-01-06T18:18:00.001+08:00

nothing much today but i have sign up for show choir, fitness club and dragon boat hope i can in dragon boat and show choir.

dragon boat maybe tough and tiring but it can help me grow stronger and fit too i hope the only thing is how to manage my time only

5 jan monday

2009-01-05T18:53:00.002+08:00

New year, New month, New school, New lesson, New teacher, New environment

1st day of school felt lonely there is no 1 i know alone in a different place but zainul is there with me but we still got in to different classes all back to square 1 but i got to see most of my primary school friends like Joon song, Fami, and my primary school best friend Kai feng but if i not wrong he same class with ..... get to know each other is back is real good at less i am all alone stranger even though hardly have the chance to talk to them but i still got new friends in class but on my way home i am still alone.... what can i expect? life is a journey one must take all alone if not one will not grow i must prove to myself that i can be alone no matter how hard the journey lies ahead... got to see my teachers but they are very strict they expect everything to be steady and correct same as miss foo but she do not shout like her that's all but she did say 1 thing that freak me and my friend, she say there is 4 test given out within this year and if anyone fail or flunk 1 test, 1 test that's all that person will not be able to do the exam and have to repeat that 1 year..she also say NO FRINGE TOUCHING EYE BROWN, NO SIDE HAIR TOUCHING EAR, NO BACK HAIR TOUCHING COLLAR and LANYARD MUST BE WORE DURING SCHOOL TIME and so on...... tired is the only thing i can describe myself now... life must go on btw got my time table

Monday
8~10.30 am : CHM Pratical
10.30~12pm : CHM Theory
12~ 2pm : Break
2~4.30pm : Life skill theory
End of monday

Tuesday
8~10am : ENS Theory
10~11am : CHM Theory
11~1pm : Break
1~5pm : PIC1 Practical
End of Tuesday

Wednesday
8~9.30am : PE
9.30~12pm : PIC1 Theory
12~1.30pm : Break
1.30~3pm : FPS Theory
3~4pm : CARE
End of Wednesday

Thusday
1~4.30pm : FPS Practical
End of Thursday

Friday
8~10.30am : ENS Practical
End of friday

*DUN ASK ME WHAT PRATICAL OR THEORY IS THAT I MYSELF ALSO DUNNO...

BTW MY LESSON IS AT 6 FLOOR COOL RIGHT WALK UP THE STAIR DE when with teacher ....

but got lift also lah thats 1 cool thing as well as canteen this campus got 3 canteen 2 aircon de.. cool man

thats all eat le wan sleep le tired man

sunday 04 2009

2009-01-04T07:54:00.003+08:00

LoL after a long time not updating is a very bad choice as u can see now for me i have SO much that i wan to post but at the same time i dunno how to start and start from when..... see?

ok let me just do a raft 1 coz i dun remember much only bit and pieces from here and there, so here it goes....

let starts from 31Th Dec

Today is the day i need to report to Simei ITE to do the colour blindness test and also fill up so many form.. and buy school uniform there are variety of choice but i still like the uniform in black with white strip... but thats only for hair dressing couse so hell i am so love at first sight with it.. btw my yuki jie accompany me too if not i will be bored dead do u know how long is the queue whalao the queue is like so dame long till i need to wait for at less 30 min to 1 hour and the number is not in order it any how jump and it make the waiting more longer.... after all blah blah ITE stuff, i and yuki jie take taxi down to find her mum and wait for her to go for work nice to meet her mum btw. after that we went home to put our stuff and wait till 6 o'clock then meet but i meet yuki at 5.30 coz she got to buy mouse ya mouse but not mouse that run around the house but is for computer use one.. then after that slack at mac WAITING FOR RIKO MEI and her bf billy( sigh got dear le lor, got dear dun wan family le lor... sad lor) sigh wait for around 30 min or so then went she come we go take mrt to yishun find miki coz she working till 8 but canot find her then we also wait for her till 8.30pm then when she arrive we shout hurray coz we are starving lol after that went back to woodland to find BM and JD after that went to the muti story car park opposite CWP to watch fire work even thought no voldka no wiskey no wine but we got 4 botter of tiger to share around with akira, billy, BM, daryl, JD, miki, riko, yuki and me and also a breezer for wendy they all to drink after that they all went home left me, akira and yuki torn at daryl's house to play ps2 and com after that we watch transformer on tv till 5 plus if not wrong then sleep...

1st Jan

and wake up at 10 am then accompany yuki to marsrling to eat breakfast and then went home to sleep.... nothing much happen today

2nd Jan

need to wake up early around 5.30 to go ITE this time i go alone... reach school around 8.30 because by bus mah not including time to top up EZ card , reach school pay school fee and also take pic for my ite ez card and also have my break fast there in the school so dame cool lor got air con de slack there till 10 then take bus then mrt home in the mrt so dame tired and fell asleep when i wake up its already at admirty lucky nv sleep awhile longer if not i will have to take a turn back to woodland rach home play maple sea ya back to games train new jobs ya..

3rd Jan

accompany my sis go swimming till 7.30 pm then go CWP buy some thing then eat dinner after that go walk pasa malam then saw Jian da working there but did not expect him to work at the game store then my sis wan to play but i trying to save money =.= then jian da came to us then we play the game buy 2 get 1 free then jian da also help us score 10 point many time in order to win the pump air lolipop.. Jian da thank you for your help ^^

4th Jan

still planing

5th Jan

OMG SCHOOL START TOMORROW... GOT TO WAKE UP DAME EARLY....

Today sat 27 dec

2008-12-27T23:50:00.002+08:00

lol today wake up at 12 then play with ps2 at daryl house after that eat breakfast at his house too since his maid got cook our share then after that left his house at 12.30 meet tansy under her blk since daryl stay like few blk a way from her then after that walk too Cwp then wait for shu ting then i, tansy and shu ting went to octrum park to find that $10 ktv but it open at 2 pm den we go walk and tour there, the setup for chinese new year is already put up and sales for chinese new year deco is everywere and we realease there are only two posb atm machine in octrum park... wtf.. take half an hour just to find the bloody machine after that walk back to the $10 ktv went all the way too the 3rd floor were the counter is and we realese that we have to book the room in order to use it.. we are like WTF... nvm forget it we then take taxi down to amk and spend the 4 hours in K box we take turn sing like hell all kinda song from old song to new song... did not have so much fun.. spend around $25 per person just for the K box but we got 3 bowl of tibits 6 cup of drinks( 2 cup per person) and we order 2 plate of sidedish and 1 plate of fruit and also get $5 off after overall amount and all for $25 great right? after that from amk we all take bus 167 back due to shortage of fare for Mrt and i am the only 1 shortage of money... but they accompany me back.. finally back home finally nice sleep, hope can get my pay before 30th dec if not i really no need buy my ite stuff already cos 31th dec i need go semei ite to buy my uniform.. and some others stuff thank god that it's from 8.30 to 11am if not dunno how to go for countdown...

today26 dec

2008-12-26T22:17:00.002+08:00

went to east cost park ride bicycle and play around as well as disturbing wendy... jian da also here with bing ming as well there is also akira, miki, misaki , yuki ,billy and ramesy also jian da brought a friend along his name is darrer which study in woodgrove primary also which is from my batch also... but they went also just to go ther to play with guiter then after awhile we akira they all want to test billy on dunno wad also then akire bring billy to hide then wendy got to find him.. but in the end we all have to look for wendy coz she lost her way then we all spring all the best we can to look for her..then after that take bus home at around 5 then in bus we sing talk and had laughter filled the bus then we reach we went to darly house to eat dinner then akira have to check result also then after awhile wendy, yuki, miki, misaki, ramsey went home left me and akira then now we are now drinking red wine and some other wine then i and akirah play ps2 daryl play dota now we switch thats why i can blog later tomorrow going to ktv with seeteng and shuting ... happy day of my life nv felt that free for around 2 month..

nothing compare to a nice good sleep...

2008-12-26T09:29:00.004+08:00

my result is out... click on it to view larger..

bloody no mood

2008-12-26T00:20:00.003+08:00

FUCKING HELL, BLOODY NO MOOD

What a fucking Christmas day today last day off work still have not gotten my pay bloody hell wish to get my FUCKING HARD EARN PAY !! some more reach home being pester by my mum if i have gotten my pay Bloody hell this is the dunno how many time in this weeks.... then my mum ask to borrow money from me fucking hell i still have not got my pay yet 1 lor borrow already owe more the fucking hell owe till i dun even know how much already now still want to borrow... yes they bring me up feed me well give me schooling and so on but NOW is NOT my time to repay them YET, i am still SCHOOLING i want to earn that much is for myself to enjoy want lor i dun want later want by my stuff no money still ask for money lor so what i did say i dun wish to spend? at less i can save for rainy days right?

there goes a saying a selfish world, the selfish succeed

indeed please i am working for wisdom any MONEY not because i need them but because i WANT THEM so that i can buy what ever i want UNDERSATAND......

22 dec monday

2008-12-22T09:51:00.000+08:00

omg today zhou jie lun nv come need to get ready go work liao.. my leg still hurt omg hope nothing when wrong bless me dude....

21th dec sunday

2008-12-22T09:41:00.002+08:00

Today wake up with lots of plane need go do my handphone and more..

at around 12+ go do handphone with the accompany of my sis then meet tansy mei go swimming, i, me sis and tansy went swimming till 5.30pm then went to tansy house play guitar and computer at the same time check out the ITE web.. at around 6pm we all play badminton and basketball in such a bad luck while getting the shutter court i sprain my ankle .... sigh then after resting for awhile play basketball praticing dribbing while walking ... coz of my leg cannot run ... then at around 7.30 when back to tansy house rest then play com again... then sing song i also got to borrow cd from tansy as well then after that ready to go home with my sis

home sweet home...
thats all

MY LEG STILL HURT AHHH....

19 Dec

2008-12-19T14:01:00.002+08:00

haiss today no work i take leave to look after my sis but when i wake up at 12 my sis disappear then call my mum then realise she went to child care coz my sis is feeling better walao scare me sia i thought my sis go out nv call me .... since say take leave the rest at home bah after working this long gotto rest btw i have already stop working with my dad need time to rest and get ready with a new road....

18 dec 2008....

2008-12-19T13:30:00.002+08:00

today wake up at 6.30 get ready go miki jie's house ask miki jie help me dye and style my hair it took around 30 min to complete and a few min to dry up then miki hand all brown le thanks to my hair spray.... i clever right hair dye brown use dark drown har spray..... pro sia the after that miki got to go to work then i go school once i step in school it already like 9am the 1st persn i saw is benson... sigh after that he told me that he saw noel and she was late for her CO as well.. then we go and find her while on the way to find her we saw pastor john dismantling the garden outside 2008 4/5's class room then have a nice chat with him after that found noel at plaza with her fellow er hu mate.. since noel is praticing her zhong hu i go help out benson and the bookshop aunty with some stuff for tomorrow's pri 6 coz tomorrow (19 dec) the pri 6 will go to their new sec to buy their books.. after that noel call me asking me were am i so i go look for her after that i am curious about the zhong hu she i playing with so i took and play with it and noel start to teach me it is good to have her by my side teaching me as in like last time when we were in sec 1 besties friend ever seat together evry morning and during recess time miss the past not including sec 2, june onward ...

after that time to get result same must listen to mr koa talk again blah blah blah then get reasult not happy with my grade did not manage to get 1.2k :( sob sob sob.... F***king dissapointed but still got the course i wanted haiss but all pass ya all pass

after that went to noel sop to work till 10.30pm IN SCHOOL UNIFORM...... coz went to do my hand phone at check point then go 167 find noel but noel not there haiss wanted to share with some one my reasult but in the end rachel got to see my result hais miss noel's zhong hu hope to play music with it again NOEL teach me....

To all N level graduate

2008-12-17T00:56:00.001+08:00

N level results to be released on Dec 18

>The results of the 2008 N levels (Academic and Technical) will be released on Thursday, Dec 18.

School candidates may obtain their result slips from their respective schools from 2 pm on the release date.

Those who wish to apply for the various courses offered by the Institute of Technical Education can obtain the application forms from their schools when they collect their results.

Private candidates will be notified of their individual results by post. They will also be able to obtain their results through the Singapore Examinations and Assessment Board website, http://www.seab.gov.sg, from 2 pm onwards on Dec 18.

OMG!!!!!!!!

2008-12-16T00:11:00.002+08:00

here come another letter....
by
....

NAVY....
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

lol

letter from army now navy but navy offer a very good salary...
even my mum ask me to compare with my friends regarding about ns and all this crap..
but why can't she understand thats my road what for ask my friend about it?..

oh ya she did not know i DO NOT have FRIEND
so what are friend, i do not need friends
friends are jerks, bullshit and balless....
sigh...

signing off nothing to say....

11 dec

2008-12-13T01:11:00.002+08:00

Typing for 11 dec sorry for late post again...

HAPPY birthday YUKI jie....
HAPPY belated birthday akira kor...

SORRY cannot take off on that day still have to bother you all to come down ....
so miss KTV ahhhhh i wanna go~~!!!

i dun care lor 29 dec we go chintown de ktv free flow drinks de we so goona sing more then 10 hours lor whaaaaaaaaaaa so miss choir... *sigh

i am going to quite the job at 167 have to prepare for next year le must rest and play no more work....ENJOY!! work day and night finally going to be free..

wendy and all thanks for the MOCHI ~~~~ omg my fav food i am so gonna eat them once a day to remember all of you every day..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

there is this girl who always caught my attention when i am working in 167 when she buy food from our stall , when ever i look in to her eyes i will not stop smiling at her and most of the time i cant stop laughing when i see her and she will laugh back too she have a very beautiful smile, when ever i saw her i will feel very energetic even after a long day and every time i saw her ah be and jou jie lun will disturb me like ask me to ask for her number but i am some how shy you know? haiss hope to see her soon at less make friend with her before quiting .... sometime i will even remember her face... but 1 thing she almost look like zu xian some time when thinking of her zu xian 's face will appear... but zu xian got BF le cannot....!!!!!..... * sigh...

my realize

2008-12-10T09:36:00.002+08:00

i just realize that i have not been blogging this few days yet i i every day will come to my blog to read my tag box and other people's blog this few days still the same mon- fri work at hawker from 11.30am-10.30pm then sat & sun work from 8.30am-6.30pm by the time reach home i will sleep like a log too tired i dun even have time to log in msn.... 17 and 18 take off day again 17 have to go back to school take result not excited at all.. only hope i still can get within 1st, 2nd, or 3rd place thats all i so dame wish i can get the 1.2k busery... still have not get my pay from the hawker did not bother to ask they are now shortage of money too now press them to give me my pay is like totally inhuman just wait lor and see how... haizz till now still cannot get a total amount of pay ...

just receive letter from army regarding... about SAF-ITE sponsorship scheme (SISS)
it say :"Siss fully sponsors your ITE studies, while giving you a mounthly allowance of up to $750 throughout your course of study."

But after Graduate from ITE i will join Army to be train as specialist.

and the only privileges will get is will earn a market competitive salary and receive welfae benefits...

how to regester
date: 14 DEC
venue: collyer Room at Swissotel!!!
registration:1330 hrs
presentation: 1400 hrs

but i would like to go in poly if possible ... in this case i will have to go NS before going poly...omg...

question in my head

2008-12-07T21:11:00.002+08:00

why do i wanna work?
why am i working so hard?
why do i hesitate should i or should i not to use my working money
why does it hurt everytime i spend my working money

Why,Why,why?

i work day to night,
to earn that much,
to spend on what i wan,
but it hurt me hard.

i work jobs to jobs,
to get more then i wan,
but it hit me hard,
when others ask me what
what i wan and why work so hard.

there is time i want to take days off,
but when the money comes to my mind
i pull of the days i wan to break.

there's so much plan in the beginning of the holidays,
but in the end only work work work.

is it only to buy items i really want?
but why it hurts when i spend them?
sigh....

......
GAMBATE kazuki kun~~~~~~~

ahhhhh

2008-12-04T00:08:00.002+08:00

JIE, MEI, KOR AND ALL READERS i have told a lie ya indeed i have 3 jobs but only working 2 jobs the other 1 job still aside......have not work in it yet ahhhhhhhhh....

just finish working from 167 and realize that they owe some money due to shortage of cash and they have to avoid them some how... i wish i have that sum of money... i REALLY wish i have, why is money a burden to everybody WHY? Why everything is rising except salary? why? i wish i can sell anything i can just to help her.. she look so helpless yet i can't help it totally hurt yet she is keeping everything to herself, she rather take the burden then letting her others friend know.. how? sigh.... if every single part of my body can sell for some cash i am willing to cut it off and sell it just to help her.... next year she is taking her 'O's yet she still have to worried about all the stuff i wish all her burden is on me.. i rather switch life with her... i am having 3 jobs having pay but working at 167 the pay is also from them.... i wish zhi rui can come everyday to help her sell food cut all the vegetable and even able to wash the plate..so i can go out work the other 2 jobs earn as much as possible and help her in some ways.... i am totally too navie every time i saw other 2 workers get their pay i will always ask when will i get mine, when is my turn, how long more i have to wait? but i did not know that they all also trouble by the word money.. how i wish i have not dye and reborned my hair.... that $60+ i can use that to help her too.. why am i so.... everything i wan i will want to buy? why cant i save up? what the F***ing hell, sigh.... i am so useless.....

sat,29/11/08

2008-12-01T08:17:00.002+08:00

Late post

posting for sat 29/11/08
yay today finally come i and my sis early wake up, just to get ready go out to CWP to watch winx club the movie we reach CWP at around 12.30, then buy the 2.30 movie ticket couple sit some more haha before the movie start when to walk around with my sis when to arcade to play some childish game because of my sis then walk in an out of shops.... nothing to do.. then after walking went to pink yogurt to surprise lee yen and hope she is working in the end she did Work!! yay so happy then i bluff her say my sis is my daugther lol then after that we eat yogurt my sis really love the yogurt 2 and a half over four portion is she eat and the rest i eat lol then after that we both rush up for the movie.... almost late thanks to this lady cut my queue even my sis is not happy about that and almost wan to lay her hand on her to push her off but i stop her what for waste that kinda time let her buy and go off u push her and every thing will be delay even if we are 5 sec late for the movie we are still late... thats why so we still hurry get the popcorn and to drinks and rush in.....but dunno y during the movie i feel bored as in i enjoy the movie but the feeling as if my heart is some were else.. may be because of the emo feeling bah.... haizz in the end still finish the show and we go to republic poly my sis is attending swimming lesson there so we can go in and take a look around the school and it's so big btw i did not see any gorgeous lady or hot lady in the school but there is lots of hunk running around in school shirtless and all have 6 pack to 8 pack with the chest build up cool man so wish to be like them....haiss

sunday,30/11/o8

when to work with my father again ....
tour around in his car pack coconut deliver drinks and soon it's 5 pm my father drove me in to the factory as always stock up coconut and drinks and drove me back home at around 1km a way guess wat i saw... simei ITE and it's so freaking near my father's work place.....
and in the end still earn $50 yay

thats all.....

Friday 28/11/08

2008-11-29T01:15:00.003+08:00

Konichiwa again

miss all my jie and mei... wonder how have you all been working late like me too?
take care ok?

just came back from work erm... around 12+...... dunno lei feeling emo again *sigh* just update songs in creative zen stone we get from school carnival haha totally remember how i and jer........ nvm.... all in past now ... y bring it up?... ya update the song inside then on the way to work listen the song inside but 1 thing all the old song i like to listen make me remember the time we all spend together... and the time i solo take mrt to mos burger to work... i am 1 once afraid of alone i am still now but the feeling just numb a way song are just wonderful it make you emotional go up and down... lol my mind and my heart emotional always take over me ... too emotional..

The trust i have for my friend are fading off just like the memories i have once, after all this up and down i am starting to see bigger part of the world...the world is too big for this word FRIEND... i am talking too you i may treat you good but i am not your friend i am just your colleagues, just like i take to other people not because i am friend with them but they are just my other schoolmate, classmate or colleague thats all.. accept my godbro, jie and mei ....

jie,mei........ i love you

whaaa wake up by a bad feeling

2008-11-27T10:34:00.002+08:00

Ahhhh wake up like 3 hours le spend the 1st 15 min in the toilet...2nd time better 20 min 3rd time better still 1 hour almost stuck in the toilet bowl stomach pain like nv pain before... no lah 1 hour including falling asleep lol and my HEAD like struck by lightning and echo with thunder whaaaa tell u this is my worst day of the month whaaaa *sigh* later not going to work better rest and...................PLAY COMPUTER GAMES YAY!! and take care lol

hope noel nv see this if not see gonna kill me with her turtle shell.

Question: how to kill with just a shell some more just a turtle shell?

Ans: you know when u play mario games then inside the game got turtle? when u kill the turtle it will hide in the shell and when u step on the shell it will slide off? ya thats how she kill me and then she will take the shell and put in near my ear and shout in it like a mpfier ermm dunno if spell correctly... nvm lets continue...

AHHH wait i will continue tomorrow with new post for now i need rush toilet again bye !!!!!
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poop...phew... just a fart.... just kidding LOL