♥Sunday, March 8, 2009
why must you know so much, can't you tell i am trying to avoid something?!
are you blind? don't you have feeling? can't you see i am try my best? I REALLY HATE YOU! HATE YOU TO THE CORE!, WHY MUST YOU SAY OUT?, CANT I HAVE MY OWN IMAGINATION?! I AM UNLIKE YOU HAVING PEOPLE TO LOVE YOU HAVING THE CHANCE TO LOVE BACK ,WHAT ABOUT ME?! I DUN NOT HAVE, I SUCK! you are right i am a LOSER,WEAK, PATHETIC GUY FROM THE BEGINNING.
I DRINK EVEN IF I AM BAD DRINKER, I SMOKE EVEN IF I SUCK AT SMOKING and do you know what I AM SO 5 CM AWAY FROM TAKING DRUG!!! trying my best to keep a way my emotion as if i am wearing a mask every day even if i am dieing from the pain within me i will still put on a smile till the end of the day. So what if i am looking for the other partner, I KNOW MYSELF BETTER THEN ANY ONE OF YOU.
DO YOU KNOW WHY I ALWAYS EMO?
YOU THINK I ENJOY MAKING MYSELF A STRANGER TO EVERYBODY?
DO YOU KNOW THE THING THAT EVERYBODY DID IS ALREADY BECOME PART OF THE
SCAR ON MY HEART EVEN IF IT'S THE SLIGHTEST WORD YOU SAY? DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS WHEN YOU JUST SUDDENLY RECALL IT? OR WHEN SOME ONE MENTION IT?
you say you gone through lots then all of us, are you sure?
remember when i 1st step in to ITE my classmate say they miss sec sch life because of the thick and thin they been through what about me what memories do i have? i totally hate my sec 3 and 4 life wasting my 4 years waiting for a girl that never return even if i recall it now i find myself Stupid and Idiot treating friend with trust and respect in the end still got back stab by them even until then i dun even dare to confront them KNOW WHY? cause i do not have much FRIENDS.. last year august finally create blog and finally found ways to realise my anger in the end they found out about my blog and all confront me by whacking me up in the car park! THEY BLAMING ME THEY CANT SEE THEY IN WRONG ALL MY FAULT... i finally dun remember the word Friends any more no meaning to the word , i dun trust myself, i trust Nobody i will not give a dame to anybody who see me not happy, if u wan shoot me for the thing i do that make you not happy dun blame me for doing the samething back cause i have enough of this crap.... spamming? backstabbing? putting words in to my mouth and still be proud as if you did nothing wrong? ALL WATCH OUT DUN GO OVER MY LIMITS FOR I DO NOT KNOW WHAT I WILL DO!
Erasing Unwanted Memories`*@* 4:02 AM
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