♥Tuesday, July 14, 2009
i do not know how to start my post with but E.L you told me to trust and give chances to people around me if not i am not being fair to people who care about me...
i wish to have the determination to try but i do not want to give the chance any more, people can still talk to me and i will still reply but no more trust and chances i do not want the pain and hurts anymore i am extremely tired with stuff like this.
i have 2 friends, we know each other during working, they will try very hard to pull me out for outing even if i reject them to my max just to hold our friendship together, most of the time we do enjoy our self a lot but i will still doubt them by asking myself are they really my friend and i also do find them irritating very irritating i know their good intention but i rather stay at home be left alone listening to my music devise and keep my ear shut off from word's i do not like/want to hear.
the real reason for me to be shut my self in is because i tend to rely on others after a period of time and over trust them and i will only remember and realise only when stuff happen.
sorry E.L i am not able to open up again, this world has no need for friends, who need friends when there is money, money may not buy happiness but at less it make my world go round
life is never fair for me then why make it fair for others? in order to gain something of a same value must be lost (the value can take more then you expected, risk it or drop it)
Erasing Unwanted Memories`*@* 3:47 PM
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♥Sunday, July 5, 2009
this week i really did enjoy myself with poh kim and Aveline with some of their friends,
Monday 29/6, after work slack at Jurong's Playground,
Tuesday 30/6, we went to Sembawang park then walk to Sembawang bottle tree village and from there we walk to Yishun mrt station to meet Aveline's friends and we also brought 3 box of durian to walk to Yishun Dam to eat and slack,
Wednesday 1/7, we went to marsiling to slack at dun really know the place but is somewere near the causeway able to view the sea and malaysia
Thursday 2/7, went working again
Friday 3/7, we went to Vivo to enjoy ourself smoking was not a plan till somthing strike my mind and bother me which i have no idea what is it.... sorry sister and brother i am the way i am i can't control my emotion well something strike my mind and i will feel down and emo a way maybe thinking too much bah..
saturday 4/7, trim my hair...=.="'
Sunday 5/7 TODAY!!! going out to sentosa to enjoy myself and slack since TOMORROW START SCHOOL!!!!
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FCK YOU NBCB YOU ASK ME WORK FOR YOU OK LOR SINCE I LOOKING FOR JOB SEE YOU AS MY FRIEND'S AUNTY I BOUGHT MY PAY DOWN TO MIN $3.50/HOUR WORK 5DAYS A WEEK FROM 10AM TO 10PM OR EVEN LTR...... AND NOW IS ALREADY JULY WHEN YOU WANNA GIVE ME MY PAY ?! HELLOW?! FROM JAN TILL NOW IS ALREADY HALF A YEAR LE LEI LEFT 1K SO HARD GIVE MEH? ...... LAST WEEK SAY LE MONDAY I NEED MONEY FOR SCHOOL YESTERDAY MSG YOU REMIND YOU NOT ASK YOU LEH TEN YOU TELL ME WHAT FCK CLOSE SHOP LE..... THEN DUN KNOW HOW TO MSG BACK IS IT?! DUNNO HOW TO TELL IS IT LEFT 1 DAY WERE YOU WAN ME GET MONEY? BAKA. EVEN WHAT WE CALL SO CALL FRIENDS ALSO GOT LIMIT DE LOR.... IF THATS THE CASE I RATHER TAKE THE MONEY THEN HAVING YOU AS FRIENDS I DUN CARE IF YOU ALL CALL ME MONEY FACE OR WHAT SO EVER CRAP THAT'S MY MONEY, MY HARD EARN MONEY AND I AM NOT LETTING IT GO COMPARE TO MONEY I DUN NEED FRIENDS....
Erasing Unwanted Memories`*@* 6:45 AM
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